I sit here in wonderment, a bit baffled. Just when I think I understand the Lord's plan for us, BAM, we are told otherwise. And I don't write this post in a complaining manner, or a negative or ungrateful manner (because I truly see more blessings pouring forth now more than ever), just honestly in pure general wonderment, and even amazement. (and writing it out helps me clear my thoughts and see the big picture all the more clearly, so this post is mainly for me *smiles*)
These last few years have been up and down and all over the place for our little family. Not that our family has suffered in the least, we are absolutely rock solid, but meaning our plans for our future have taken complete 360 degree flips every so often.
Our plans for our future began wavering when the economy dropped, and in turn we lost our home. And as weird as it may sound, I am so grateful we did. That wasn't where we needed to be. That's not where we were at our happiest. I thought having a big home was what we wanted, what we needed to be happy, but it so wasn't.
We wound up in Rexburg in a much smaller home, living on much less money, and I can honestly say I have never been happier. This is where the Lord wants us, and we absolutely love it here. One of my favorite books describes it as the the Lord plucking you up from your garden and planting you elsewhere where you are much more needed and where you will be so much happier.
In terms of Jeremy's job, as he so eloquently states it, it's like, "being smacked upside the head with a 2X4". And believe me, he's been smacked quite a few times. And again this morning. There have been so many opportunities where he is THIS close to getting everything he wanted, just to have it fall apart at the very last millisecond and to be told, "Get your hiney back in school." The first few times we figured were coincident. Until the promptings became very clear, very loud, and honestly- very blunt. Go back to School. I won't go into details, but just to say what he's doing now- as spectacular as it sounds: fabulous job offers that would make loads of money... it's not where he needs to be.
My first thought is to become upset or angry, or out of sorts with it all. Why on earth turn down (currently two) wonderful job opportunities where we could have it all? But the decision that is ours is to either listen to the worldly ways, or listen to the Lord's plan for us. And while we don't understand it, Jeremy doesn't want to be hit in the head anymore, so we're listening!
And timing. Ooh the timing. *sigh* This must be my test in life, because man, the timing is AWFUL! Our sweet little Alex will arrive in just a few short weeks... and coincidentally we are moving... in just a few short weeks! Funny how that worked out. Many of you know it took our little monkey a bit longer than we had planned for him to come to our family. We are currently finishing up remodeling our next house, which will be ready for us to move into just days before Mr. Alex arrives. Which leaves me completely useless in terms of packing and unpacking seeing as how I can't even bend over!
I find the timing of it all a little too spot on... but by putting my trust and faith in the Lord, I know it's all part of the plan, and I'll take it without complaint. And if we have to live on student loans for the duration of Jeremy's schooling, so be it. This is what we need to be doing right now. We don't make the rules, we're just playing the game. :)
And one last final thought, it's as if the Lord knew I would need something to sweeten the deal and go along with all this. This part just worked out a little too perfectly to be coincidental as well. He knew we needed friends. That's the one thing in Idaho Falls I needed the most and didn't have. And to plop us down in a newly remodeled house to suit our needs... directly across the street from the BEST little family ever, that's just icing on the cake. With little Miss Ava to be Courtney's best friend, their brand new baby boy Sterling to be friends with Alex, and (hallelujah) a wonderful NORMAL friend for me to help keep me sane. And our husbands even get along.
So to make a long story short... and this is quite the long story already... even though we think we know where we're going, or we think we know where we want to go, or eventually wind up, listening to the Lord's plan for us (though we may not understand it... seriously, at all!) is always best. He knows what's best for us and He wants us to be happy. And I know we will be. Granted, it's not where we ever thought we would be, but I've learned not to question the package that blessings come in. :)
And because I'm a firm believer in that every blog post needs pictures, I'm throwing in these 2 random tidbits. Courtney has invented "Fashion Rocks". I was trying to take a nap, so I told her she could go do whatever she wanted for the time being. This is what she came up with! Painted rocks, glittered, feathered, and ribboned. Fashion Rocks! Pretty creative for a 3 1/2 year old! (That top one flies... ever seen a flying rock? Now you have- just stay out of it's way!)
These last few years have been up and down and all over the place for our little family. Not that our family has suffered in the least, we are absolutely rock solid, but meaning our plans for our future have taken complete 360 degree flips every so often.
Our plans for our future began wavering when the economy dropped, and in turn we lost our home. And as weird as it may sound, I am so grateful we did. That wasn't where we needed to be. That's not where we were at our happiest. I thought having a big home was what we wanted, what we needed to be happy, but it so wasn't.
We wound up in Rexburg in a much smaller home, living on much less money, and I can honestly say I have never been happier. This is where the Lord wants us, and we absolutely love it here. One of my favorite books describes it as the the Lord plucking you up from your garden and planting you elsewhere where you are much more needed and where you will be so much happier.
In terms of Jeremy's job, as he so eloquently states it, it's like, "being smacked upside the head with a 2X4". And believe me, he's been smacked quite a few times. And again this morning. There have been so many opportunities where he is THIS close to getting everything he wanted, just to have it fall apart at the very last millisecond and to be told, "Get your hiney back in school." The first few times we figured were coincident. Until the promptings became very clear, very loud, and honestly- very blunt. Go back to School. I won't go into details, but just to say what he's doing now- as spectacular as it sounds: fabulous job offers that would make loads of money... it's not where he needs to be.
My first thought is to become upset or angry, or out of sorts with it all. Why on earth turn down (currently two) wonderful job opportunities where we could have it all? But the decision that is ours is to either listen to the worldly ways, or listen to the Lord's plan for us. And while we don't understand it, Jeremy doesn't want to be hit in the head anymore, so we're listening!
And timing. Ooh the timing. *sigh* This must be my test in life, because man, the timing is AWFUL! Our sweet little Alex will arrive in just a few short weeks... and coincidentally we are moving... in just a few short weeks! Funny how that worked out. Many of you know it took our little monkey a bit longer than we had planned for him to come to our family. We are currently finishing up remodeling our next house, which will be ready for us to move into just days before Mr. Alex arrives. Which leaves me completely useless in terms of packing and unpacking seeing as how I can't even bend over!
I find the timing of it all a little too spot on... but by putting my trust and faith in the Lord, I know it's all part of the plan, and I'll take it without complaint. And if we have to live on student loans for the duration of Jeremy's schooling, so be it. This is what we need to be doing right now. We don't make the rules, we're just playing the game. :)
And one last final thought, it's as if the Lord knew I would need something to sweeten the deal and go along with all this. This part just worked out a little too perfectly to be coincidental as well. He knew we needed friends. That's the one thing in Idaho Falls I needed the most and didn't have. And to plop us down in a newly remodeled house to suit our needs... directly across the street from the BEST little family ever, that's just icing on the cake. With little Miss Ava to be Courtney's best friend, their brand new baby boy Sterling to be friends with Alex, and (hallelujah) a wonderful NORMAL friend for me to help keep me sane. And our husbands even get along.
So to make a long story short... and this is quite the long story already... even though we think we know where we're going, or we think we know where we want to go, or eventually wind up, listening to the Lord's plan for us (though we may not understand it... seriously, at all!) is always best. He knows what's best for us and He wants us to be happy. And I know we will be. Granted, it's not where we ever thought we would be, but I've learned not to question the package that blessings come in. :)
And because I'm a firm believer in that every blog post needs pictures, I'm throwing in these 2 random tidbits. Courtney has invented "Fashion Rocks". I was trying to take a nap, so I told her she could go do whatever she wanted for the time being. This is what she came up with! Painted rocks, glittered, feathered, and ribboned. Fashion Rocks! Pretty creative for a 3 1/2 year old! (That top one flies... ever seen a flying rock? Now you have- just stay out of it's way!)
6 comments:
Wow Bec!!
I can see how much this is making you grow. I am SURE it is not easy, but I too have learned that Heavenly Father knows best. Trusting in him is always good. :)
I LOVE the flying rocks. ha ha! too cute!!
Good luck with all your future happenings. It seems like things change just when you think you have it all figured out. I mean that in the sense that you've already experienced your changes. :) Hopefully you'll have clear sailing from here on out.
Wow Bec! (not meaning to copy Andrea!) Let's hope this is it for you guys! It's been a long few years! I hope school is just perfect. This post is awesome. I love the rocks, and I love you!
School huh? That is awesome for Jeremy! It will be a nice change I bet. Your little family deserves the best and it is so awesome that you follow the inspiration our Father in heaven gives you. Good luck with everything and I will help you pack so just give me a call when you are ready!! It will be fun- you will get to order me around all day :)
Hang in there. It sometimes takes a while for things to come together. Keep listening to promptings. Let me know when & how I can help!!!
Thank you for your post! I often find myself not putting enough trust in the Lord....I guess I need too. Good luck with everything!
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